So here I am. Just a few weeks away from staring my career as a medical social worker. Sometimes life surprises us. I still remember when I was sitting in the parking lot of Cal state san bernardino chatting with Loma Linda University about their master of Social Work program. I thought I wanted to be a therapist and I ended up falling in love with medical social work.

Above all, all I want is Gods will. But what is that?

I want to live out Isaiah 61
I want to help my husband.
I want to be the best mommy I can be.
I want to give comfort to those who mourn.
I want to offer hope to the hopeless
I want to help single who have gone through extreme challenges with bad relationships. Those who have been/are being abused.
I want to help the poor single mommy who feels isolated and alone.
I want to help marriages.
I want to help children.

I don't want to get caught up in any of those things being more important than the other because there is really only ONE important thing, that is bringing God glory.


That's all that matters in the end. So that's all I want right now. And because I am not God I will proclaim a prayer of availability to Him each and every day and see what adventure He has in store for us.

For now that means my husband is back in school. My oldest daughter is a senior. My younger daughter is an 8th grader. My son is in pre-k and I am working a couple days a week at the hospital and serving with my husband 2 sundays a month in children's ministry.

Life is a vapor. I don't want the american dream. I want Gods reality.

Tomorrow will begin my last week of vacation before I begin my final year of Grad school!
I woke up thinking ok I have to finish this vacation with a bucket list...

1. Go to Disneyland
2. Get a mani/pedi
3. Finish a book...or 2
4. Workout with my sister
5. Mt Rubidoux
6. Have coffee with Myrbon
7. Scrapbook
8. Visit my parents
9. Have a picnic
10. Try something new

I'll let you know how it goes....

6 month checkup

Organized in 2013 update.

Half way through the year and I have gotten off track! Still have some of the same goals and now that summer break is here its a great time for new beginnings. Hopefully this week will be a great start to getting back on the schedule I had from Jan-March. April, May, & 1/2 of June were so hectic that I didn't follow any plan besides do whatever you can as you can.

Jeremiah and are now both Pescatarians going on 2 months. He probably misses meat more than I do. :) I love how much better I feel, but I really think I may need to limit the milk in my life but gosh I love cheese! :/ I haven't been eating well but I'm at least maintaining the same weight.

I haven't ran consistently in forever and I miss it. School and internship really kicked my butt the past couple months but I really just gotta quit the excuses and just do it.

My house is messy. Not as messy as I use to be but I had a nice cleaning/washing schedule going for a while.

Well I won't continue this rant on how unsuccessful I've been because the way I see it, if I get back on track and stay consistent for the remainder of 2013 that will mean I only slacked on my "organized in 2013" goals for 2 1/2 months.

So here I go again...

Organized in 2013

February is almost gone...my resolution at the beginning of January was one of those resolutions that included a bunch of other ones. I decided if I just got this one thing down, then all my goals would come to pass...and almost two months in, I think I am right! My goal was to get organized in 2013! I have reorganized the way I do EVERYTHING! And I am liking the fruit that has come from it, thus far. In the past two months I have changed the way I spend my time, money, and energy. I plan ahead, I make sacrifices, and I discipline myself by practicing self control!(Well this one technically just started last week...but hey its still early in the year.) I decided I will write a bit each month on my progress here, this will help me with one of my other goals- to keep a blog. =)

Some of my goals which all fall under the Umbrella of ORGANIZATION-

Run 1 1/2 marathon...in progress I have ran 57 miles in 2013 so far.

Lose 30 lbs...I won't comment on this until I am half way to my goal.

Memorize two scriptures a month with my family- 2 for 2. =)

Save money- I am staring an incentive savings program which begins on 3/5/13.

Be a better homeschooler- in progress

Keep a clean home- My husband says in 2 months I have gone from an F to a C to just recently a B+! =]
(I'm really an unorganized person)

Make a menu and cook different yummy dinners in order to save money, eat healthier, limit fast food- Check!

Date night with each of my family members once a week- so far so good

Bible Study with my daughters individually- this has been a struggle with my teen but...it's a work in progress

Pray more- I don't think we can every pray enough so this will always be an area for growth for me.

Straight A's- Been working on staying ahead of school assignments so far so good.

Write one letter/card a week- check

Read 2 books a month- With school it's been too hard but I have read one a month.

Last night as I was making dinner my son asked "mommy are you making me dinner?" I told him I was and then it began...about 10 minutes later he grabbed a bowl and asked me if it was ready, frustrated with my answer he walked away...2 minutes later he walked in the dinning room where I was sitting and threw a pack of hotdogs on the table yelling "I want hot dogs!" I tried to tell him that I was making him something much better than hot dogs, and that he just had to wait a while longer. He began to cry and scream while holding his bowl and then went back in the kitchen grabbing can foods and sauce asking me to let him eat those. (my son was not starving...I promise) His last attempt was grabbing a spatula trying to get food out of the pot, and of course me telling him to stop or he would get burned. Eventually dinner was ready and he loved it. Aren't we like my son when it comes to waiting for the better things God has for us? We get so impatient to where we will settle for weenies in relationships, or take any instant type of can food instant results/gratification, or even attempt to fix things ourselves...not realizing we are about to get burned. I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 130:5. Wait on the Lord...he's fixing us up something great.

One of the things on my summer bucket list this year, is to get caught up on scrapbooking from the past 3 years!! Participating in challenges will help me get things done...so here is my first one...



I entered this challenge- "Scrappy Monday" Sketch Challenge

All things work together...

This weekend Donald's mother stayed with us for the whole weekend, it is the first time that has ever happened. I met Kiz a week ago for the first time. I will never forget how shaking her hand told me a story about her life....I wont write about that here...but I will say I am glad and so very thankful I got to meet the woman who gave birth to my husband. I know some may say that's all she did was give birth to him....but after spending the past few days with her I can see she did so much more...it's her sense of humor that my husband inherited that I love so much, it's her cleanliness that makes my home feel so welcoming, it's her work ethic that makes my husband the dedicated provider he is. And the fact that she loved my baking says a lot to me too. =)~ "I don't really care for pancakes but I like hers."

On Saturday afternoon we all sat together and had a "bible class" as she called it. We each went around and shared bible verses that God was presently using to teach or encourage us. Kiz shared Luke 11:28 which says Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it. It blew my mind that this woman was the only one of us without a bible in her lap, but yet she shared two bible verses that were obviously hidden in her heart. The 2nd verse she shared was 1 John 1:9... If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

On Sunday we woke up and got ready for church...I was able to do Kiz's make up and give her some clothes to wear went to church and the message Pastor shared was about walking with Jesus through the storms of life. The message was right on time for all of us. At the end of the message I was distracted during prayer because someones phone was going off...I opened my eyes to see Kiz wasn't distracted...she didn't have one, but both of her hands lifted up when our Pastor asked who wanted forgiveness. Once the call to come to the alter was given Kiz was the first one down there. Keshia and Donald followed her and the tears just came down my face. But it didn't end there...Pastor Greg looked directly at Kiz and said "you don't need a vice....you don't need to hold on to that habit...you need to hold on to Jesus" Oh how I praise God for his divine nature! He is always on time!

We ended the weekend by going to my dads for lunch, it truly was a weekend I will never forget. All I can do now is pray that the seed fell on good ground...and that it works together for the good.